DAY 1! P1!!

So day 1!!!!! p1!!!!!

Breakfast was bacon, fried egg, toast w LOTS of butter, and milk w cream added for fat. Then I had 3 lindt white truffles between breakfast and lunch. Lunch was chicken alfredo, sourdough (also w LOTS of butter), an artichoke w mayo, and another glass of milk and cream. HOLY COW, now THAT'S gorging!!!! And for dinner my parents are coming for STEAK! I bought the yummiest biggest ribeye!!!!! mmmmm.

I DO feel like napping now, though. And tomorrow I have shrimp scampi planned and a potluck for dinner... omg I could die already. But I'm enjoying it for now...

Round 2 here I come!!!!!

T minus 2 days and counting!!!!!!!!!! Friday!!!!!! I cannot even wait!!! Just think! In a week I could be below 200! I can't even imagine!

Again, it's been so long since I posted that it seems like I should give a little update. TOM hit last time I wrote and for the 1st time since I started this crazy thing, I didn't have any violent fluctuations during my TOM. Hooray for THAT! I was a little worried! I also took a weekend away from the hubbs and kiddos and visited my sis in Seattle. We did all kinds of tourist stuff... the underground tour in pioneer square, the piers, pike's place, the museum of glass, OH!- and stayed up till 2 am talking like we did when we were kids. It was a great time, and DEFINITELY needed it. Recharged my batteries and destressed! (Now my hubby needs to, too, and we'll all be good!) Gotta say, though, 6 hrs of walking and a few meals and sweet treats later, I was worried to come home to the scale. I woke up Sunday looking like a water balloon, all swollen and bloated. I peed all day, and yesterday morning I was actually 206.4! So worried that I was retaining water and needed to have a steak day. No such bad luck!!!! Wtg, me!!!

And so, since I am starting on Friday, I am kinda off the diet altogether this week. (Although, if you want to be technical about it, p4 IS off the "diet.") I got all the things that sounded good that were fatty, especially since loading starts friday and I GET TO eat all that that I want!!! And of course!- when I'd said that I was treating myself to peach cobbler last week, the oven burner/element went kaboom on us, so I'm going to have to go to Mom's and do my baking. I planned on making spritz cookies... 1 1/2 c butter in the recipie... REALLY good... shortbread type cookies. I'm dreaming in food right now! I bought babyback ribs, ribeye steak, shrimp scampi, chicken alfredo, garlic sourdough, corn (w butter), mashed potatoes, omg! I feel like I'm about to make myself sick with all this I'm planning on eating! Geez! Can't wait! Last round I did a TERRIBLE job of loading. I did go up, but only 1.2, .8 of which I lost the 2nd loading day. And I WAS hungry for the first bit of p2. (Supposedly if you gorge well, you aren't hungry. We'll see.)

Well, next post I oughtta be on protocol!!!!! Wish me luck! And here goes nothing!

TOM and still maintaining!

I'm not preggers!!! (Not that I was worried bout that or anything... don't start spreading rumors...) I started today. YAY!!!! And because I have a buddy that is starting next round w me, I was honestly worried I'd get done w tom and have to wait because we were starting round 2 together. She started today too!  YAY!!!! Hope we are both off TOM soon!!!!! (If by the 26th we start, we'll be off p3 thanksgiving day... any longer we have to wait and that just means a little shorter p2.)

 And I was actually 206.2... .2 above my LDW... after all these "bad days" and not weighing 2 days in a row! (Been eating not the best choices...) But for the last 2 months my tom has really sucked w my weight... and there you go! I'm stable... right in time for another round!!! At least I get to go to Seattle this weekend and not have to not eat anything! Yay. I think I'm going to celebrate with peach cobbler tonight. (Maybe old behaviors, but at least I think this might be a healthier option!)

I'm sorry, my dear readers!! I have not posted lately, but I AM still going strong. I haven't had any huge lessons or successes, other than just keeping the LDW down. I've bounced around the 2 lb +/- range, and am SOOO looking forward to starting another round after my next TOM is over! And this time I will have a REAL hCG buddy to share the journey with! She's due, strangely enough, at the same time of the month, so we're starting up at the exact same day! (And we'll be done and on p4 for Thanksgiving... and not a cheat!) I'm actually really stoked about this! It's funny how we met, because she had a word of advice because I had too many steak days at the start of p3!!! I'm excited, because she NEVER cheated during p2, and I did almost EVERY day.... (bites of the kid's lunch or dinner) ... and 3 times IN A BIG WAY!

Hope you all have great losses, and a good weekend! I probably will not be posting very ferquently till I'm back on the next round! (But that's only about 2 weeks away!)

Just checking in during p4

Since I posted last at the beginning of the week, I've been up one day, down the next and up again after that. Damn you, TOM!!!! I was stable until then, and now I'm struggling a bit. I'm not letting it get me down, and yesterday, when I was up, I just reverted back to p3 to get it under control. And again. this morning I was below. I'm thinking that if I'm still at the upper part of my range monday I will do another steak day to get myself back down to the lower part of the range. Anyway. I'm alright. I am pounding the water and still walking. Today was a hot one, so I felt zapped pretty quick. Hoping my weight gets under control before my next round's loading days. I don't wanna gain TOO much before next p2! I'm being probably more lenient with myself in between right now, since I'm going to be doing another round anyway, that the under .8 above my upper 2 lb limit isn't bothering me too much. I'm just drinking more water and more or less doing a p3 day. So far it's working. We'll see. Hope everyone's having great days and losses!!!!

Revised Capella sodas

So I was soooo excited to get these drops in, so I could make my own pop! I just got the vanilla cream stevia, so here's the tweaked version!!!!!

1 1/2c (12oz.) sparkling water
30 drops vanilla creme stevia (sounds like a lot, but it isn't.)
21 drops of the capella flavor drops (I used root beer float and cola, but preferred the root beer.)

Mix VERY gently and enjoy!

The cola tasted like it would be great to mix, as in p3 we can have vodka... rum is more my fave, but don't think that's p3 friendly!

Capella drops are found at http://www.capellaflavordrops.com/

I'm baaack! Doing good again!

So yesterday sucked, but I did a steak day and got it all worked out. I started off the day doing an apple day... ie I ate an apple for breakfast, before I decided to switch to steak day. I hoped that it wouldn't throw my steak day out the window, but it didn't and now I'm back to 207.4! I'm still heavier than I'd like to be, but I'll take it! At least it isn't over my 208!

Steak day... kinda like suspending a kid from school for skipping class.... is that REALLY a punishment?!?!? Nothing till dinner, then a giant ribeye?!?! MMMM. Celebrating my bday was tooo good. Even capping off the festivities with my steak! MMMM.

So the thing I learned, since this really has been about learning from my mistakes... too much bread and such is very bad. I'm much better off with corn and potatoes as my carbs. Gluten-free, more or less.

'Did my grocery shopping today and found what I think just might be the trick to white chocolate delight... SOY PROTEIN POWDER. I've made a couple small batches, and instead of proclaiming it to the universe, I will let it harden and give it a taste test BEFORE I post the recipie. Whey protein would probably be a good substitute, but where I went, there wasn't any, and I couldn't afford it today anyway
 (and what I found, I found in a bulk bin, so I didn't buy very much). It wasn't flavored, so vanilla whey protein would taste a little different, and I used agave. I sooo prefer agave to stevia. I just haven't gotten used to the stevia yet. Maybe I just haven't found the kind I like yet. Anyway. I'll post the recipie if it worked.

Hope y'all are having a blessed day! I'm constantly reminded of how grateful I am to have found this diet... until now, I just settled on believing that I'd be "fat" all my life. My sister has lost quite a bit of weight, on her own, and she told me I'd start going through some internal stuff as the weight comes off. And I am. I'm so shocked that I can now suck my tummy in and visualize me thin. I just had NEVER thought I'd EVER be that again, and it hurts to think about what that must mean to think that about myself. In my 12-step program, I have learned to "fit in," and not feel less than anyone else, but I had still felt depressed about my weight. Now that I don't feel "ugly" and "fat" since I'm on my way DOWN in that journey, I am feeling more empowered and not so ashamed and guilty for it! Those are SUCH ugly words to say. I'd resent anyone else for saying those things about me, but yet, I'd say it all the time! I know I'm not the only one in the world with such guilt and shame about the way I looked, and ate even MORE to stuff those feelings. That's the very cycle I'm trying to break free from! It really is a powerful addiction! This diet has REALLY helped, not only to lose weight, but it has helped me to become aware of everything I'm eating, and to retrain myself what to eat and what NOT to eat. Said I'd gone grocery shopping this morning. My cart was basically filled with FRESH foods, and I think only 3 things were packaged, and those were cereal & crackers for the kids and mac n cheese... which I don't want!!! AMAZED.

Apple day after birthday weekend!

Sorry I haven't posted lately! I was out of town at my parent's cabin in the mountains this weekend! So not only was it birthday cake, it was ONE smore's one night when we stayed up in front of the fire. I'm legally on p4 so I thought I could get away with it... I guess not. 209.4. My LDW is 206. (I also hadn't taken my scale, so I'm not sure if it was because of the whole 2 days, or ???) Hence the apple day today. (We also excersized a LOT and I don't think I drank enough water, so I think I'm probably retaining water. Hopefully today will get me below LDW!)

 

For excersize,  we got out of the cabin to hike around the lake. 1+ hr/2.5 miles!!! (And pushing my son in the stroller, which wanted to swerve off into the lake at every root that I had to push it over so now my arms are burning too!!) We also took a walk the day before yesterday and because there was a tree over the trail, we bushwacked up a steep bank to get back out onto the trail at the top. (It gave me a great deal of respect for the "prey" on Mantracker... they're always so glad to find the trail, even though they just know that mantracker always finds people there.) So anyway, I think I found my mode of excersize... nature walks. There's lots of places here where I live that are great walking paths to take the kids along... my daughter has sooo much energy that walking is GREAT for her, too!!!!! So here's to my new hobby. Hope it sticks! It definitely makes me feel good after, and the kids are enthusiastic about getting out too, since it USUALLY involves playing at the park!

 

Hope you all have (or had) a GREAT weekend! And GREAT losses!

CARPE CAKEM to me!!!!!

It's my BIRTHDAY!!! CARPE CAKEM!!!! (Seize the cake(s)!!!!!) MMMMM.

I weighed myself this am, and was at 208.8, which is roughly .8 above my 2 lb max. I was soooo sad, and WAS NOT going to do steak day, with it being my bday and all... got upstairs and realized I hadn't gone potty yet! So I did, and then I went back down to weigh. 207.6! A whopping 1.2 just by going pee!!! HOLY COW! Anyway. Hope all of you are having a glorious day! I know I will!

1st LEGAL day p4

So I'm on LEGAL day 1 of p4 today! So happy that I could squeal! And tomorrow is my BDay, so I made bday cake. My 1 big cheat!!! I feel so guilty about the cakes, but then again, there aren't any restrictions in p4 except to eat healthy. (I'm figuring that a cheat day 1x a week is my plan for p4, and OBVIOUSLY my 1st day will be TOMORROW! :D ) Now, I know that they have to wait till tomorrow, but the beaters were SOO GOOD! I couldn't choose between angel food and german chocolate, so I made both. FROM SCRATCH.

THE.BEST!

As much as I'm looking forward to this phase, I'm also happy that I get to start up again in 3 weeks. I love the feeling of losing the weight! And I REALLY want an excuse to make my hubby buy me a whole new wardrobe! (Not buying much right now... just what I NEED as I'm getting smaller!) So elated with where I am and where I'm headed! May this new year be just as amazing!